Saturday, 23 April 2022

An abstract basis of emotions - 5 unanswered questions

I have been obsessed with finding a rigid ground for emotions, lately. Meaning that when one feels: digust, happy, angry etc. I am interested to know what is the origin of such emotions - meaning those simple rules/laws/axioms that can simulate/explain/trigger these emotions; let's focus only on emotions of humans in this article. Though these emotions might get triggered because of several reasons, for example, through someone's personal story/anecdote/experience, but I find it hard to consider such anecdotes as something which might provide a rigorous justification to the origin of emotions. I understand that evolutionary arguments are the most widely accepted reasons for it. However, I attempt to consider an emotion as an objective problem that when felt for the first time should be theorised there and then without rationalising something that happened million years ago and seeing the problem as afresh from a rigid, mathematical angle. Some questions that are popping up in my mind and I would like to answer them in next few months (through an epic poem and series of paintings) are:

1. How can the emotional bond between mother and baby be put forth in an abstract format?
2. How can the relationship between an theist and God be put forth in an abstract format?
3. How can the bond between an atheist and a system of belief that they believe in  be put forth in abstract format?
4. How can the obsession of a human with stories/poems/movies be put forth in an abstract format?
5. Desire - the desire to be immortal and stay alive in hearts of others - how can it be put forth in an abstract format?
6. The weird obsession to assimilate mind into reality - an emotional obsession with the idea of death - how can it be put forth in an abstract format?

I think these are healthy questions to ask. Possibly, to write down 5 sub-parts of the poem where each sub-part is an ensuing dialogue between couple of people who try to get the emotion by understanding the painting, which attempts to answer each of the above question.


Tuesday, 19 April 2022

Randomness jelly

The biological world is not black and white,
it's full of colors, it's very bright! 
Bright because of proteins that reflect light,
green, red, yellow - if not then it's just white.
These colors are complex products 
of underlying simple sequences of proteins -
gosh, if you know them, 
do you think you have explained everything?
The basic tenets are not everything 
to explain complexity at larger scale,
simple rules yield complex things,
and that's what we call the randomness.
Randomness needs to have a pattern,
else you can say nothing about it.
To find a pattern is to glorify it,
celebrate it, beautify it, respect it!
Less randomness might look bad,
for it makes things less thrill,
imagine a tennis player playing shots
by employing the same, old skill.
But, randomness is like a jelly,
you reduce it somewhere, you create elsewhere.
If not in places, it could be in paper.
If not in paper, it could be in interpretation.
If not in interpretation, it could be in meta-interpretation.
The point is randomness exists at all scales,
and a decrease in randomness doesn't mean permanent decrease,
it's a beginning of a new world - 
a world where thrill happens,
where wind is as chaotic as before,
where ideas come, conquer, and stay -
you stay, I stay, we all stay.

5 mins or 50?

Time destroys everything, for the randomness needs to increase,
arrangement of things has to increase, possibilities has to increase,
but what stops these options when I am with you?
As if everything else is static, stopped, not moving, dead,
and there is a life in between us - a thrill of change and possibilities.
A constant high, an array of adventures, a sense of careful carelessness,
a sense of thrill that is hard to point out explicity at.
Is this a result of some emotions that exists at some space?
or is this some evolutionary game that everyone else also plays?
I do not know. And I do not wish to know answers to these.
What I am more interested in is - what can we create?
Creation is important. Conjectures and criticisms live long.
A refined idea, built out of years of debates and hardwork, passes on.
New generation likes refinement. 
Noise is meaningless and rubbish.
All I know is noise reduces when I am with you.
A clarity comes, a purpose comes, life comes, enlightenment comes...

Monday, 4 April 2022

What's developing?

What's developing?

Something is exploding?
An affair is happening..

Amidst frenzied war,
fear of deaths, lives,
and of mortality, AGI,
explosions of neural nets,
chimeric beings all around,
debates on consciousness,
blurred gaps of science and heresy,
self-promoting burdened beings,
to snatch what's on the plate,
physical space reduced to 0s, 1s,
a new 'theory of everything' every month,
philosophy of biology more needed than before,
geo-political crimes, identities at risk..

why would someone write?
Is a printer, keyboard, screen more than enough?
Why would someone spend hours in desire
to advance a product of hundreds of years
of humanity's rational spirit?
Why would a problem, as niche as Clay problem,
seem exciting and not anything else?
Welcome to the 21st century.

The century that starts now with the end very far
and any singularity someone might predict
might occur, or maybe not at all
there are no rules here
no predictions
no laws
0s,1s.